Okay, this post is pretty off topic, but I know many of my readers will find it interesting. I recently did a brief interview with Pete at Do You Even Blog for an upcoming episode of his podcast. Little did I realize how stressful it would be!
Acting Before Thinking
Sometime last week Pete tweeted out that, he was looking for three PF-bloggers for an upcoming podcast episode. Well, as an avid listener of his podcast, I decided to throw my hat into the ring.
(Shoutout: Go subscribe to the Do You Even Blog podcast – it’s fantastic!)
2) ONLY requirement -> Must have Skype, and a PF blog older than 3 months. Reply below or email firstname.lastname@example.org if you're interested.
— Pete McPherson @DYEB (@doyouevenblog) August 27, 2017
I replied to his tweet and then sent him an email right away and all was set. I mean how amazing is it that I could be on the same podcast as people like Michelle Schroeder-Gardner, Nick Loper, or PT Money?
Well, one problem: I am a HUGE introvert and pretty much despise public speaking, or even talking on the phone. Yeah, absolutely hate talking on the phone and public speaking. So, what the hell am I doing signing up for a podcast?!
I thought, “Well Pete’s a pretty amiable guy, so it won’t be too bad.” Besides, it will be good practice and I am sure if I do poorly, Pete will have a backup plan. (I actually have no idea right now if any of that is true, likely not though.) So I sat tight and waited for the time we scheduled to chat.
Time for Talking
Pete and I booked a time for a Monday afternoon, around 4 pm. Since I work from 9-6 or so, I needed to also book a conference room at work and do my 20-minute session with Pete. I picked some smaller room, seemingly far away from most activity. Lo and behold, at 4 pm the president of the company is kicking it across the hall from the conference room I booked, chatting away with some other exec. Not really worried about it, just a bad sign. 😐
Pete and I connect on Skype and we chat for a brief moment before diving into the topic at hand: How the PF community has helped or hurt my blogging efforts. If you get a chance to listen to the interview, sorry for the weak voice, as I said, I get nervous. Moreover, what else happens when you get nervous? Your mind gets fuzzy and thoughts are difficult to produce, i.e. brain fog.
We wrapped up quickly and I went right back to the office work at hand. With all of the adrenaline pumping, I actually got a fair amount done before I went home two hours later.
So, the majority of this post I actually penned down on my commute home. I literally could not stop thinking about what just happened and all the stupid things I said. (I couldn’t even remember too much of what I said – thanks, brain fog.) I pulled over, parked, and wrote this all down just stream of conscious to get it off my mind – hoping it would help relieve some of my anxiety. (I actually pulled over a second time because my mind wasn’t fully cleared!)
An unedited portion from that moment:
So, it’s been about two hours since I wrapped up chatting with Pete at DYEB. And only about 24-36 hours since I thought it was a smart idea to say. “Hey, Pete! I’d love to be interviewed for your podcast!”
I am sitting here thinking, should I email Pete and tell him to scrap my audio. Am I too scared to get my voice out there? To face the reactions to my thoughts, because I think I said something stupid? Well, I am going to email Pete. I am going to thank him for letting me on his podcast – any press is good press? (I also trust Pete. He is going to answer me honestly, if I ask him whether I bombed it, and whether he thinks I am going to burn bridges.)
But, this blog is more hobby than business. Would I like money? Sure. But in reality I’d like to contribute and be a part of this personal finance community. I am afraid of being “kicked out.”
Okay, I was being dramatic. I did not totally bomb the interview. However, I was likely quite boring and a shaky nervous voice does not make for pleasant listening.
Anyway, Pete was nice, nice, nice about the whole thing when I did eventually email him. So hopefully, when the episode is released it will be edited so I don’t sound like such a nervous doofus. But, just in case – Pete I am sorry for a poor interview. And for anyone who listens – I am sorry for your boredom during my segment. 😛
I LOVE the Personal Finance Community
Funny thing. I wrote a whole page of notes before Pete and I even started. My list of helpful to blogging things that the PF community does was MUCH longer than the not helpful. Then during the interview, I focused on the negatives. No idea why. Guess I felt like being adverse. Hence, my concern of being “kicked out.”
So let me offer up an apology.
You, the personal finance community, are amazing. You create invaluable content. You leave authentic and supportive comments. Twitter is always a laugh riot. Everyone is so nice. So yes, I did discuss a certain percentage of comments being disingenuous. However, MOST of you are super-genuine. Moreover, I am certainly hypocritical of my aforementioned critique. No doubt, I’ve left comments on popular blogs trying to build some traffic.
I cannot recall all the positives items from my list, but a few I remember: Rockstar Community Fund, Camp Mustache, FINCON, and the new Lola Retreat. All of these events are life changing for so many people who attend. We all know how much work blogging requires, how much dedication achieving FIRE demands, yet we all support each other wholeheartedly despite coming from wildly diverse backgrounds. You restore my faith in people’s kindness.
I appreciate everything the personal finance community stands for. We want to educate, we want to help, and we want to inspire. Without this community, I wouldn’t find myself in such a healthy financial state. There are so many bona fide bloggers and community members that they far outweigh any of the negatives. In fact, it’s the authentic bloggers that manage to stick around because they’re doing this because of a passion, not for the allure of easy money.
Thank you, Personal Finance Community!
For the many uplifting comments. For the willingness to collaborate. For being our own best cheerleaders. I realize blogging takes true hustle, and writing comments, social media engagement, etc. is essential to success. I’m glad to consider myself a member of this community.
I’ll leave you with this final stream of conscious from that day:
It’s now 2-3 hours later and I am still amped up, my heart racing or maybe just heavy. My thoughts are still a little fuzzy. Maybe I didn’t crush it out of the park. Maybe I did burn a few bridges with some abrasive comments. However, I pushed myself to do something new. It didn’t hurt, but damn was it uncomfortable. Maybe I’ll do it again. Maybe I won’t. At least I tried and next time I will be a little better.
See you in the comments!